Sunday, November 25, 2007
4 Weigh-In: One Pound Lost + Some New Insight Gained
I thankfully lost a pound when I hopped on the scale this morning. Not sure what the exact body fat percentage change is, since I forgot to record this information when I'd recorded my weight a few days ago on 11/22. If I compare the percentage to what I'd recorded on 11/15, then I'm still up by few percentage points, a body fat percentage gain of 2.4%, to be exact. Ouch!
I've decided to squeeze in my last run of the week, Run 3 of Week 9, today. Will probably run this afternoon. Supposed to be 52 degrees, so will try to wait sometime around mid-afternoon (between 12 noon & 2 pm) when the sun's most likely at its warmest.
Normally, I try not to do back to back runs (to give my body time to rest & recuperate), but if I'm going to get in atleast 2 runs of the final week (Week 10) of the BOHR program before this weekend's trunk show (yes, there's going to be a second one, due to popular demand), that's what I'm going to have to do. I'll just have to suck it up & do it. Of course, if my knees or other part of my body start insisting otherwise, then of course I'll listen, but I'm going to still make every attempt to keep my running schedule on target.
I've also been doing some thinking, especially regarding my writings of the past few days, when I realized something important: Much of what I'd been discussing were things that had already come to be, and more significantly, had already come to pass. So, in other words, I was dwelling on things or events that'd happened it the past that couldn't be changed. While these thoughts had bubbled up in a moment of reflection, they had seized my focus & threatened to capsize the life balance I'd fought so hard to achieve. What started out as a tangential issue morphed into a giant, emotional beastie with which I entered into battle.
Unearthing unresolved emotions (especially residual anger & frustration) in order to conquer them can sometimes be a dangerous thing (i.e., a proverbial "pandora's box" of sudden, over-flowing emotions), that is, unless you take the reigns early on & keep the focus on positive action & problem-solving. There aren't many moments when I let my emotions have full reign of my faculties, and so, when the emotions were starting to wreak havoc on my focus, it was clear to me that these feelings had clearly overstayed their welcome.
Now that I see this, I realize that I need to let go of these experiences, because stirring up them up again is not even remotely useful to me, nor is it very useful to the others who were involved in the experience. Of course, sometimes it can be useful to analyze the past in order to move forward, but I realize that cannot "make" others whom I feel have wronged or hurt me in some way, do this. They usually need to come to this realization on their own. It doesn't matter whether these people are family, friends, acquaintances, or other people with whom I come into contact.
It doesn't mean that similar interactions won't occur in the future, but I think that the next time they do happen, I will make every effort to address these situations at the time they are happening. I realize that this is not always possible, as a person's thoughts & feelings don't always crystallize into a perfect verbal expression until after the encounter. However, I'll try to do my best in this regard to communicate such things whenever possible.